Colton Haynes in his memoir says that he was hiding in the closet in Hollywood which left him miserable and suicidal !!
Colton Haynes opened up about how suffocating it was to hide his identity in front of everyone. In his memoir, “Miss Memory Lane”, Haynes writes that his team advised him not to come out publicly.
They were desperately trying to stop all the images from the photoshoot. The one he had done for the gay magazine during his teenage years.
“I really got to a point where it was making me so sick that I was acting 24/7 as straight.” the model reported in an exclusive interview. “It was really destroying me. It really did a great toll on my mental health, and I think it still does, but now I have a way of coping with it and also a way of understanding all of that.”
Haynes finally adds up the courage to come out publicly in 2016. He lost all of his signed endorsement deals which were his main source of income. He was only offered one project, that is to work with Grindr.
Colton says writing the book was the most difficult thing he has probably done in life.
“I kind of decided that once I was going to do this, I was just going to completely dive in. I wasn’t going to be censored and that I was going to actually tell my story that was so meaningful to me.”
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He further explains that it is simply not what people are going to expect. He knows that fans who are expecting a light-hearted are in for a shock after getting this news.
The former “Arrow” star also reveals a piece of very disturbing news. He dives into his dysfunctional childhood. He revealed that he was molested at age 6 by his uncle.
Also, an intense relationship with a cop boyfriend who was 42-years-old started when he was just 14 years.
He confessed that,
“It’s been a struggle for me still to this day”. “I wanted to be very transparent that I still struggle with it because I clearly know now, as an adult, I know it was wrong. But I was just, I was so in love with this person. But at the same time, finally coming to terms that this was not OK. I was a child, even though I had been taking care of myself for so many years. But that still doesn’t make it OK.”
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The star was also addicted to Adderall and alcohol,
He got depressed and attempted suicide which landed him in a psych ward. Haynes also writes that at a very young age he was aware of his beauty and also realized that that was the only thing that is defining in his life and the good thing that he had.
“I just kind of grew to understand that that’s really all people wanted from me” . “And that was the only part of me that I could really bring to the table because that’s really all anyone wanted.”
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Colton was married to celebrity Jeff Leatham. Currently, he is single and not interested in dating anyone. When asked about dating,
“That sounds like a nightmare” “I realized that I could get a cat to feel the love that I think I need and deserve … I’m almost four years sober. I’m kind of new at this kind of life, so I want to figure myself out. And, I don’t want to dim my light if I’m with someone.”
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He explained on Instagram and read more about his journey in his new Memoir.
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